figure8ofhate

I hate the way you make me feel i want to tear you apart to make me feel better. I want you to feel the pain both physically and mentally that i have to endure every waking moment. I cut your name into my heart and mind today so i will always remember what you did to me. Not a day will go by that i dont feel the pain that you made me feel and almost taste. But everything i do revolves around you, my thoughts, my actions, my very life. Like the moon pulls the tides of the ocean you control everything inside of me. I feel as though i lost a part of myself in the turmoil that ensued the bitterness. It's the part that will let me lo

It comes again like a blinding flash and leaves just as quick. Makes my head swirls in a miazma of thought What has become of me? The pressure builds for another day it seems as though this is it. My eyes feel as though they are going to explode What is to become of me? My eyes go blind to everything i can no longer see what it was. The pressure subsided What have they made me become? Realisation peaks on my mind like dawns first light it all comes flooding back Drowned in my own sorrow and pain i cry I know who i am, i hate you.

Fighting every breathe i lay here and stare at the ceiling. The ground is colder and harder than usual and it bites at my back and sends shivers up my spine. Inside my head is lost...1000 thoughts trying to squeeze through my head...trying to all be heard at once. One prevails..does she love me. It's such a simple question but i dont think i want to know the answer, it hurts too much. Having been here before you would think i knew what to do...how to react..how to feel. Everytime is different though and this time the pain is so overbearing it has clouded my judgement. As i raise the gun to my head i begin to weep a silent tear for my own ver

   The cursor just sat there and blinked in his face. Tempting him to put forward all his feelings and thoughts. He wanted to tell her he loved her so much and how he hopes that this works for them but he cant shake the feeling that this was a wrong move. In his head it felt wrong but in his heart it was so right. She was something that he had never encountered before. It is as though he had found the one person he can relate to, the one person he can just give his everything to, and there is his fate....blinking in a cursor. He had never felt this way about anyone, ever. This one person both consumed him and tempted him into uncharted territ

I sit and stare at the sky's beautiful colours, arms folded over my legs i sit alone. I sit and wonder where this smile has come from, why has it chilled me to my very soul. I am not the person i was yesterday, something has changed inside of me. I cant help but notice my mind feels serene, like a body of calm water it is motionless and beautiful to behold. I take my heart and i place it back where it belongs, where it is safe from all the pain and sorrow. I don't want to have to do this anymore, next time i give myself away it shall be forever. I dont want this tainted heart anymore, this one seems to be so full of anger and jea